Still, I'm much too into control to leave my blog in the hands of anyone else now. Accordingly, I've set up my own blog on my new domain, khaotica.com. I invite all interested parties to stop by and, well, party.
Peace and love.
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We're getting so deliciously close. My cybernetic dreams may be realized ere I leave this world...
- Mood:
excited
Hello again, after many months of absence. Is it my nature, I wonder, to leave so much unfinished and to feel a certain satisfaction in the act? In one of the many Chinese action flicks I've watched, one character refers to himself as the wind, forever gusting this way and that with no more intent or direction than a wayward leaf. It seems that many of the grand projects I've undertaken reflect the same lack of drive.
Not to worry, though. I've always prided myself on living fully in the present, casting off worries of the past or concerns for the future. Part of that is doing as I will, when I will--within reason, of course. If I have worked a project to the fullness of my personal satisfaction, regardless of whether it is physically complete or not, then the project has served its purpose. Granted, there are times that I regret leaving something undone--but the beauty of the present is that, in most cases, I can return to the unfinished work and proceed until I am again at peace.
What a fantastic world we inhabit. I have a friend who recently gave birth to a little girl--Kayden Grace--and a coworker who's about to do the same (she's leaning toward Londun Aaliyah at present). I am so excited for the lives of these young ones to begin--the exploration, the pain, the knowledge, the enjoyment. Despite my relative youth (a mere 25 years), I do a fair amount of vicarious living through children.
Take my sister, for instance. She's 16 now, and every inch the young lady (by that, I mean young-teen-social-rapist--the girl makes friends like Californian toddlers make wildfires). She recently broke up with her boyfriend of two months. I've been married for six months now, so the idea of break-up has faded to anathema for me; but hearing Katie tell of her anger and frustration with going through this again made me remember and feel in a way I had begun to believe beyond me.
Maybe that's why my projects often go unfinished. Suffering, as is well known, is the soul of true art. I have written my best when I was in real pain--not physical, but metaphysical torment. Heartache. Fear. Wrathful anger. These form the pistons of an engine of enormous power. The drive I so frequently lack in contentment (which is a near-perpetual state for me nowadays) is easily smelted in the forge of suffering.
So there it is. Happiness is the opposite of growth. I think, for the doubting Thomases in the audience, that answers one of the great questions of religion: why would a supreme being allow so much violence, terror, and misery to exist in a domain of its creation? Because without those elements, there would be no drive.
The movie Serenity touches on this truth. (SPOILER) In the course of its plot, we discover that Mirandan scientists manufactured an airborne drug that caused the world's populace to lose the capacity for negative emotion. The unfortunate side effect: all desire to work, play, create, destroy, or live at all vanished from the afflicted as well. The result was an entire planet of corpses, people who simply stopped, laid down, and starved to death (save a small percentage, who reacted quite differently to the drug...you should rent the movie immediately if you haven't already).
Not that I feel the need to stop eating, sleeping, and enjoying every moment of my life. But it certainly makes it easier to understand why the world is as it is, and why I don't always feel like typing that extra paragraph. In fact
- Location:Meridian One, home of the blah
- Mood:
wise - Music:Random Guitar Hero III tracks
- Mood:
too true
Jerome Murat, French Performance Artist
- Mood: entertained
Reply ANONYMOUSLY to this post with no less than three and no more than five facts about yourself and I will try to guess who you are. I get three chances to guess, so don't make it too easy!
- Mood:
ponderous
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sabine42 for this!
GuybrushThreepwood. 
Judas gave you AButterscotch. 
ElizabethBennet gave you UsedChewingGum.
Turk gave you CursedAztecGold.
Gollum gave you AnApolloBar.
You had a cool time until Inuyasha
put you up for adoption. What's Your Trick-or-Treat Haul?
- Location:A psychotropic wonder of mankind: the office
- Mood:
giggly - Music:Ok Go - Here It Goes Again
Microsoft dicked the dog big time with the 360. So much power available, and yet mediocre games are hyped up to the point where $60 a game seems reasonable (guilty as well, of course). Then I go find a gem like Darkwatch, $20, and enjoy it far, far more than I enjoyed a single minute of the so-called "most realistic mind-twist since the Matrix" (?! realistic?), aka Condemned.
Anyway. Long story short: screw Xbox magazine, and forget what you read on the sites that claim to know their games. Go out there and buy a game you'd never even glance at twice normally and give it a go. You may just break outta your box.
Bill Gates, I hope your dong rots off (but thank you for the 360 just the same).
- Location:Chillin' in the A.P.T.
- Mood:
Hop-Along - Music:311 - Summertime
Iraqi Invasion: A Text Misadventure
Revision 88 / Serial number 54892
Oval Office
You are standing inside a White House, having just been elected to the presidency of the United States. You knew Scalia would pull through for you.
There is a large desk here, along with a few chairs and couches. The presidential seal is in the middle of the room and there is a full-length mirror upon the wall.
What do you want to do now?
> INVADE IRAQ
You are not able to do that, yet.
> LOOK MIRROR
Self-reflection is not your strong suit.
> PET SEAL
It's not that kind of seal.
> EXAMINE CHAIRS
They are two several chairs arranged around the center of the room, along with two couches. Under one couch you find Clinton's shoes.
> FILL SHOES
You are unable to fill Clinton's shoes.
> EXAMINE DESK
It is a large, oak desk, with several drawers.
In one drawer you find a bag of pretzels.
> EAT PRETZEL.
I don't think the pretzel would agree with you.
> INVADE IRAQ
You are not able to do that, yet.
> INVADE IRAQ
You are not able to do that, yet.
> GO RIGHT
Far-Right
You are on the far right of the political spectrum.
Jesse Helms is here.
John Ashcroft is here.
> GO RIGHT
Radical Right
You are on the extreme right of the political spectrum.
Dick Cheney is here.
Pat Robertson is here.
> INVADE IRAQ
You are not able to do that, yet.
> TAKE VACATION
Taken.
> INVADE IRAQ
You are not able to do that, yet.
> SCORE
Your favorablity rating is 58% out of a possible 100%.
> GO PHOTOOP
Photo Op
You are at a the Emma T. Booker Elementary School, along with a gaggle of obsequious members of the mainstream media.
There is a book here.
There are some children here.
> READ BOOK
You read "My Pet Goat."
In the distance, terrorists attack the United States.
> READ BOOK
You continue to read "My Pet Goat."
> READ BOOK
You continue to read "My Pet Goat."
> READ BOOK
You continue to read "My Pet Goat."
> GO HOME
You fly around aimlessly for a while, then return to the White House.
Oval Office
> GIVE SPEECH
Who do you want to give the speech to?
> AMERICAN PEOPLE
You give the speech to the American people.
> DIAGNOSIS
Your favorablity rating is 84% out of a possible 100%.
> INVADE IRAQ
You are not able to do that, yet.
> INVADE AFGHANISTAN
Afghanistan
You have invaded the nation of Afghanistan, bombing the Taliban nearly out of existence.
Osama Bin Laden, mastermind of the 9/11 attacks, is here.
> INVADE IRAQ
(Leaving Afghanistan first.)
You are not able to do that, yet.
> INVADE IRAQ
You are not able to do that, yet.
> FUCK
Such language in a high-class establishment like this!
> HYPE THREAT
"The British government has learned that Saddam Hussein recently sought significant quantities of uranium from Africa."
> MONGER FEAR
"Facing clear evidence of peril, we cannot wait for the final proof -- the smoking gun -- that could come in the form of a mushroom cloud ..."
> MUDDY WATER
"We know that Iraq and the al Qaeda terrorist network share a common enemy -- the United States of America. We know that Iraq and al Qaeda have had high-level contacts that go back a decade. And we know that after September the 11th, Saddam Hussein's regime gleefully celebrated the terrorist attacks on America ..."
> PUNISH CRITICS
"Wilson never worked for the CIA, but his wife, Valerie Plame, is an Agency operative on weapons of mass destruction ... "
> RAILROAD CONGRESS
You schedule a vote on the Iraq invasion for just before the 2002 midterm elections. As usual, spineless democrats roll over like an SUV taking a sharp corner.
Your plan to invade Iraq now has the backing of the American people and Congress.
> INVADE IRAQ
Baghdad
You enter the Iraqi capital of Bagdad, having toppled the government and captured the nation's key cities in only 21 days. You can't seem to find the promised throngs of citizens greeting you as liberators, but the footage of the Saddam statue being pulled down looks great on Fox!
> GIVE CONTRACTS
Who do you want to give the contracts to?
> HALLIBURTON
What kind of contracts do you wish to give to Halliburton?
> NO-BID
You give the no-bid contracts to Halliburton.
> STAY COURSE
The situation in Iraq remains unchanged.
> STAY COURSE
The situation in Iraq remains unchanged.
> WEAR FLIGHTSUIT
You put on the flightsuit.
> SAY "MISSION ACCOMPLISHED"
"Mission accomplished."
> EXAMINE MISSION
The mission is not accomplished.
> STAY COURSE
The situation in Iraq remains unchanged.
Some insurgents arrive.
> STAY COURSE
The situation in Iraq deteriorates.
> STAY COURSE
The situation in Iraq deteriorates.
Some insurgents arrive.
There is a small number of insurgents here.
> STAY COURSE
The situation in Iraq deteriorates.
> STAY COURSE
The situation in Iraq deteriorates.
Some insurgents arrive.
There is a medium number of insurgents here.
> STAY COURSE
The situation in Iraq deteriorates.
An election year arrives.
> GO LEFT
Far-Right
Pat Buchanan is here.
Sean Hannity is here.
> GO LEFT
Compassionate Conservativism
You are right-of-center on the political spectrum.
John McCain is here.
Joseph Leiberman is here.
> GET REELECTED
You get reelected.
> GO RIGHT
Far-Right
Tom DeLay is here.
Michelle Malkin is here.
> GO RIGHT
Radical Right
Rick Santorum is here.
Ann Coulter is here.
> STAY COURSE
The situation in Iraq deteriorates.
Some insurgents arrive.
There is a large number of insurgents here.
> STAY COURSE
The situation in Iraq deteriorates.
> STAY COURSE
The situation in Iraq deteriorates.
Some insurgents arrive.
There is a huge number of insurgents here.
> STAY COURSE
The situation in Iraq deteriorates.
> STAY COURSE
The situation in Iraq deteriorates.
Some insurgents arrive.
There is an overwhelming number of insurgents here.
> SCORE
Your favorablity rating is 47% out of a possible 100%.
> ADMIT MISTAKES
You are unable to admit mistakes.
> ACCEPT RESPONSIBILITY
You are unable to accept responsibility.
> DECLARE VICTORY
I do not know what you mean by "victory."
> QUIT
Oh, how we wish you would.
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Yoinked from Defective Yeti.
- Location:Wistfully, in the apartment that soon will no longer be...
- Mood:
sick, thanks be to work - Music:Andrew WK - Gotta Get Ready to Die
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